i just finished watching "an officer and a gentleman"- i ve seen it many times- it seems to be aired the nights i feel like watching TV. my favorite scene in the whole movie is when richard gere helps his friend (girl) over the wall- he goes back to the other side of the wall and pushes her determination to get over the wall.

what a day. i cleaned out and rearranged some of the living room right after breakfast. the room needs color! by lunch mommy and daddy left for big sur. i spent this afternoon dropping something at a fedex box, going to gap to buy pants for esther, wandering in los gatos, vallco, reading ee cummings poetry and writing karen a letter.

after dinner, i crawled underneath my blanket to think a little. i ended up sleeping from 7-9:30 pm so right now i feel pretty awake. =) i was thinking- why don't i remember my dreams? i want to be able to.

well. a new day is coming up soon. good night for now~

happy fourth of july to my dear fellow americans! i just got back from seeing the san francisco symphony perform at shoreline. the fireworks show afterwards was gorgeous! the earliest memory i have of seeing fireworks is probably half my lifetime ago, daddy was working late at night, and mommy took me and e to be with him at his company on scott blvd. we were next to the road, watching from afar. times have changed~ today i sat in the VIP box with grandma, mommy, daddy and uncle's family of four.

i wonder if immigrants feel the power of the freedom here. i have lived here all my life so in our box i was the only one who could sing along with the songs. but i think that hardly says anything- sometimes i think immigrants are the more patriotic ones.. they don't know the words of these songs, but they have lived the "american dream." yup.

mommy and daddy are going to big sur tomorrow to camp. tanya's going to host a party? hee. a cleaning party. i told them i would clean their bathroom. haha.

one last toast to my 20th fourth of july! =)

i sort of like evening classes. it is a good use of that chunk of time in which i wouldn't know what to do by myself. the class goes at a good pace, i can daydream sort of and still be able to keep up. haha. but seriously, whenever i get home, (like now) i am pretty perky and awake. im relaxed about this course, does this mean i will do well? i hope so. he makes it sound pretty straightforward, so im excited. right after work i went to the library to pick up videos and also an electric circuits book. videos for this weekend! what will i do? i haven't even planned yet. i think tomorrow i will stay home and organize my money. i want to put together this excel worksheet like jennifer did. it's a goood idea. i got my wamu checks! haha. i like the abbreviation for washington mutual.

last night i talked to mark for a long time on the phone. you know how in movies they have these scenes of people talking on the phone, moving from bed to floor to desktop? well that was me. i lost track of time. im glad we talked- he's good at expressing his thoughts. whereas i tend to take in what is said and think a lot, but don't say enough sometimes. hm. there is a time for everything.

now i shower and get into my men's silk pajamas! haha. speaking of which! jon s called! he is so nice, and offered to take me to see esther this weekend. i declined... they will have so much fun together- yay!

i am getting off work soon! today was pretty productive and i'm beginning to really like XP. it's just the interface, the bubbly icons and it seems brighter than office 2000 professional. i was looking at a linux package today. is 6.1 the most current one? maybe i should take it home and try it. because of yosemite, and then esther being home for two weeks i have stayed away from the computer. now that my social life is going to be with the computer, i want to learn more. im also reinspired to do my blog!

i just read jennifer's blaurb. lifelong friendship is what she promised me and esther! i'm so touched. it made me absolutely happy and beaming for a good couple minutes. i hope e, me and jennifer all keep our journals updated so i know what's going on in their lives. you guys better!

ive stopped my journal for a month. and now it's back! i've thought a lot about this. one day i was sitting on my bunk bed staring outside. and it hit me, i shouldn't be so concerned about what i write. i get too paranoid. how many people really read this anyway? =) i just want this to be a good outlet for my thoughts. thoughts of my "salad days". from the dictionary, it means the days of youthful inexperience. i think it was coined from shakespeare. hee.

i have some other concerns on my mind tonight so here's the breakdown of today: tanya style, bullet style:
-the price of stamps went up! a sign of aging.
-i read Fortune magazine today, about the olsen twins! and also bill gates. i need that sort of drive for my career i think.
-my first day of summer class. evening classes can be tiring! the prof is nice, heather kwong is in my class!
-just spent a little while exercising- i need to run tomorrow morning.
-thoughts tug of the war today. i wrote two emails. didn't send either yet. the backspace is too easy to use, i believe. i should use a typewriter! also keep tall shoes?
-i feel a little tight on time for some reason. i work 9-5 then M-Th is class from 8:30-10:40-. i want time to do my webpage, exercise, learn Perl, calligraphy, clean!!
-i feel like seeing Good Will Hunting again. And the Thomas Crown Affair.

It is the beginning of another month. I know Esther feels the "excitement" too. I hope you are doing well E! I have taken over the goose comforter and Leo says HI! More tomorrow!