wow! i had such an eventful day even though i had nothing planned. =) that's the best aint it? so i stared at webpages and stuff for two hours- downloading songs also. then i went on this frenzy cleaning mode- cleaning the bathroom, vacuuming and hanging stuff in the sun to kill the bacteria. then i went to valley fair for two hours- i think that is the max amount of time i can spend shopping. it gets too tiresome! everything is too expensive. one store that has acquired my affection is forever 21. hey! some stuff is a little not my style- but it's cheap and i can find nice stuff. forever 21. i should dress my age huh? why wear conservative clothes at age 20?? hee. esther bought a jean skirt there, so i bought one too! then i was near yaohan when my phone rang. i stopped in the parking lot and talked to mark for an hour.

i admire how he can study so much. and he doesn't ever complain. i have these crazy fears about being a relationship with him, but nothing seems to matter when i hear his phone on the phone and we just talk and laugh. it is the first time he called during the day- as opposed to like 1 am his time.

so i went to yaohan and the "art of tableware" stuff is there! i WILL go back and keep on the lookout for a teaset for Karen. hee! afterwards i went to safeway to get Rocky Road ice cream and also batteries. oh! did i mention-- today was the FIRST TIME EVER i got gas for the car BY MYSELF. ooh- i have conquered the fear. =)

after! i was pigging out at home when jon called. he asked if i could go with him and Tiffany to see Lilo and Stitch. i also had to make it to airport- so instead of me and daddy going to pick mommy up, jon, tiffany and i were going to go after our movie. we got to century capitol 16 and to our dismay there was no 4:25 showing. hmm. odd. so! we went to Golfland.

it really matters who you are with- fun people make anything fun. we had so much fun! we played "serious" than crazy in the end. =) tiffany and jon are so cool. what a great family. then we headed to jamba juice on stevens creek. much to our dismay it was being remodelled! so we found ColdStone... and got stuff there.

then! we headed to the airport- we were there LONG, finally mommy showed up and we went to the Porridge Place to eat. Yay- that is like my favorite restaurant. =) And now we just got home..

what a day huh? its just so nice to have company- laughing and joking. it felt very much like a long summer day. =) i was in the sun!

gooood morning. im up before the sun is up. it's going to be a beautiful day! last night my right hand ached- too much mouse clicking and all of a sudden i got really discouraged about my webpage. sigh. i think too much about it. it's just to better just put it out- get something out first before deciding if it's the best..

i am a little disappointed that jon can't go to boardwalk. he stood me up! haha. nah. he's got a family friend over so i guess today will be one of those sporadic tanya-does-what-she-wants days. i have the car, i have money, i have energy, i have great hair today. this girl can ask for no more.

one "new" thing- i got this book "Einstein in Love" i remember reading a review years back. it looks pretty good so far. =) okay.

yay! it's friday. i have little blasts of good news, well, plans really. tomorrow i might go to the santa cruz beach boardwalk with jon shih, sunday is the concert with jennifer, jessica and daniel.. august 10th im planning something with andrew. also, when jon and i talked the other night, there is a trip to san diego to see steve with jon y and esther also.

im learning so much about string streams in C++! i looked at all these sites, i think i can manage to learn C, Java, C#, Perl, cuz they are all the SAME thing, with syntax differences.. well, Perl is based on C/C++.

im also so excited about my webpage! well. lots of work still- but tonight-- i can finally stay up and totally work on it because i don't have to worry about getting to work on time.

E is coming home in a week! Mommy is coming home from Taiwan tomorrow! i hope she brings pineapple cake!! I'm outta here...

honestly, i am a little drained by going to work. last night i talked to jon shih from 10-11 then mark from 11-2. at 2 daddy gave me the look and told me i had to get off the phone. of course i want to rebel, i don't like being told what to do, especially when i am wide awake and i want to talk to someone. but i was submissive, like yeah, okay, i'll get off.

sleeping from 2-8 was really deep, maybe, shorter than the usual hours, but a very good sleep. but now at work, constantly i have to figure this and that out, when i just want to do random things, work on my webpage. i was miffed by daddy last night, so today i just worked on my webbie, with little programming. sigh. but he just came in now, and was telling me that i have to program and etc. etc. etc.

end of summer? i just want to have fun. is it because i am young? i don't know- i know i have had breaks this summer, like last week! but i think even if you love your work, it just gets tedious after awhile.. short attention span? sigh. okay. back to work.

i want to be able to treat people well. i think i do an okay job, but it's nothing special. i guess, i want to be different in the sense that people don't get the feeling that i don't care. i guess, i want to be sincere in kindness and also thoughtful in kindness. to have a certain class and character and grace about it. grace because i don't like over-doing it, like i'm trying too hard.

i've been learning that a lot of it is observation. observing people and their mannerisms is interesting. what i like? is when i am able to observe somebody, and understand them well enough- but not tell it to his/her face, and let them know how i feel about certain things without stating the obvious. to be able to "read" people, gain insight about someone's good qualities, and sort of "pass" it to others through talks. yup- the power of observation.

i hope talk isn't cheap. sometimes i think it's not good to think too much- better just to act.. =) so i'll shut up now.

yup. so i have one piece of good news to report today- mark is picking me up from the airport~ harlena said she couldn't and mark offered last night. yay. i was about to ask zach, but zach always takes me, so that is taken care of.

i need to study harder. i should have practiced more circuits. i'm such a poor student in the summer! last summer i was so much better, maybe because i was getting credit. still! i should just STUDY. im so lazy. i get enraptured by the sun, food, distractions! bad tanya. so i just had an exam. i think it went okay. but i could have done so much better and so much faster! ugh. i will study hard for the final definitely.. the class isn't bad either, the prof makes it interesting and do-able.

days are just flying by. for example, right now, in a bit i have to shower and then sleep so i can get up for work. then work. i feel busy.. am i not making best use of my time. after work, then class... cycle. im happy thought!!!!

i downloaded a couple songs, two friends episdoes....When the stars go blue... am i pretty enough? cute songs...

im off to chat a little on IM. =) buddy alert~!!!!!!!!

peaches are so good! okay. tomorrow i get the whole day to study for my exam... so im happy about that. and! i invited jess to go see train/sheryl crow on sunday.. i also booked my flight for michigan! it's on the 28th of august, at 7:57 am, and i will get into detroit at around 6:11. i think harlena and karen will pick me up! yay~ im so excited... ! more later~!

i'll pretend this day never happened! sigh. i wasted all of today. except for grocery shopping in the morning. gr. and i just took a nice shower now. other than that, i accomplished nothing. and i have an exam~ ! ugh! tuesday night.. so i still have a little time. big sigh. little sigh. okay. off i go.